 Last updated: July 8th, 2008 Tony's business web sites: http://www.tpteq.com | http://www.tp-computer-repair.com |
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DATE
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(0-10)Comment/Verbal Description of Symptoms November 27, 2007 First day of withdrawals - had taken Adderall and Provigil at weekend
DON'T DO THIS AGAIN!November 28, 2007 Anxious, depressed, weepy. November 29, 2007 Additional sweats and tension in chest - Feel atrocious. Isolating badly.
Afraid I'll never be better.November 30, 2007 Hard to believe I was this bad last time, but I think I was. This is worse! December 1, 2007 Horrifying! December 2, 2007 Much better. Only 1 panic attack. December 3, 2007 December 4, 2007 December 5, 2007 December 6, 2007 9 days of w/d s/x. Woke up feeling at peace. December 7, 2007 Have to get used to this - feels nice. December 8, 2007 Even better. December 9, 2007 Headaches, tired. December 10, 2007 Feel great. Cut Neurontin out. December 11, 2007 Stopped Neurontin last night. December 12, 2007 Tired and achy. Some depression. Trying to go too fast. December 13, 2007 Somewhat depressed and anxious. Beating up on self. December 14, 2007 More depressed. Beating myself up. Could be Neurontin w/d's.
Mike Witort is too "up" for me. It stresses me out.December 15, 2007 Awful morning - got better December 16, 2007 Slept much better - but have some significant anxiety. December 17, 2007 Anxious, depressed, feel like a basket case. December 18, 2007 7 days since started w/d's - no change since yesterday. December 19, 2007 See 11/30. I might be better in a couple of days. December 20, 2007 HORRIBLE! Can't believe I will ever be normal again. Aaaargh! December 21, 2007 Don't think I'm quite as bad as last 2 days. Not feeling the rolling
waves of anxiety so far, at least.December 22, 2007 Started bad but got better. December 23, 2007 Reinstated back to 4. Can’t stand it. December 24, 2007 Not as bad as yesterday - MUCH better in evening December 25, 2007 Again, less bad early morning … but not good. December 26, 2007 Rough as old boots. December 27, 2007 Not so depressed or anxious. Started getting interested in life again. December 28, 2007 Small waves of anxiety. A good day compared to "of late." December 29, 2007 Irritable and minor anxiety, but tolerable. December 30, 2007 Not too bad. No symptoms, just anticipatory anxiety. December 31, 2007 No improvemenet. No change. Constant low level anxiety. January 1, 2008 Not as anxious at first - but anxiety is always close by. January 2, 2008 Feeling fairly well all things considered. Not great but ok. January 3, 2008 No real w/d s/x - just sad January 4, 2008 Started depressed but got better January 5, 2008 Mostly feel good so long as I don’t think about work. January 6, 2008 Feel great! Scary. Is it the Deplin increase or the stable 4 mg Valium? January 7, 2008 Ditto. Though I am still apprehensive when I get up. January 8, 2008 Great day. January 9, 2008 Good day. Got the FTP server up and running. January 10, 2008 Feel great, even wanted to get up and shower. January 11, 2008 Nice. :-) January 12, 2008 No anxiety whatsoever. January 13, 2008 January 14, 2008 Some physical aches, cramps, but emotionally fine so zero. January 15, 2008 Headaches. January 16, 2008 Amazingly feel just fine. January 17, 2008 Anticipating anxiety, but still only physical stuff. January 18, 2008 Well, I made it to 3.5. YAY! January 19, 2008 Woke up from a frustrating dream, but relaized it ws only a dream. January 20, 2008 Good day. January 21, 2008 Sad. January 22, 2008 Started the snowblower. A good day. January 23, 2008 Felt good mostly. January 24, 2008 Had a good day despite Julian going pear-shaped on me. January 25, 2008 No w/d s/x, but mighty sad about Jools. January 26, 2008 A little anticipatory anxiety, headache and body aches. Low in spirits
and energy.January 27, 2008 Feel frightened today and a tad depressed. Time is flying too fast and
I'm worried about money and IRS and work etc. It sucks. I wish I could just forget about all that stuff, or stop time until I got well.January 28, 2008 Frantic early morning taking Dave to court. Hard to breathe, weeping,
anxious, tight muscles, creepy crawlies on hands and arms.January 29, 2008 Gonna stick to 3.0 for a few days and see what happens. January 30, 2008 Just horrible but did calm down later in the day January 31, 2008 Feel less bad - just nervous and tense February 1, 2008 Benzo fatigue - dizzy and weak February 2, 2008 Early benzo fatigue then able to relax February 3, 2008 Good except for Jon's arguing. February 4, 2008 Feel good. Took Jon's credit card away. February 5, 2008 Great day - busy with HTML with Edgar. :O) February 6, 2008 Excellent. Did loads of work on BRI site. February 7, 2008 Started great then got headache and heartburn. Knocked me out. February 8, 2008 A good day all around. February 9, 2008 Starting out very well. February 10, 2008 Had a great day. Lots of web work. Busy. February 11, 2008 This is a milestone. 2.5! February 12, 2008 Great day February 13, 2008 Achy at first and a bit lackadaisical February 14, 2008 Feel a lot better to start the day :-) February 15, 2008 Just some benzo fatigue. Lack of stamina. February 16, 2008 Ditto. February 17, 2008 Little nervous and tingly hands. Quite a few minor symptoms. February 18, 2008 Fatigue and a little depression - no big deal.
May be because of the BRI situation.February 19, 2008 Bad headache upon awakening. Nothing more so far. February 20, 2008 Good day - especially with the stuff with Les. February 21, 2008 Felt good February 22, 2008 Feel energized February 23, 2008 Felt fine February 24, 2008 Fatigue and DP/DR - changing to a 3 day staper schedule February 25, 2008 Extreme benzo fatigue February 26, 2008 Tired and a tad depressed February 27, 2008 Not sure if this is w/d, but some anxiety and depression. Could be situational due to having to deal with IRS crap and thinking about long term future. February 28, 2008 Feel pretty depressed and lacking in enthusiasm. February 29, 2008 Some minor depression and headache. March 1, 2008 Minor depression March 2, 2008 Started good but got weak, dizzy, nauseous later. March 3, 2008 Lethargic and depressed. March 4, 2008 Feel really well, at least in the morning. March 5, 2008 Feel good. March 6, 2008 Great day March 7, 2008 Jon pissed me off March 8, 2008 Felt fine March 9, 2008 Anxious, ears ringing, head hurts, tight chest, shallow breath, depressed, gut ache, my head feels weird, head feels tight like someone's squeezing it, and my chest, gi probs, wanna cry, throat is tight… dp/dr, got some tingling on my scalp too. And feel a little nauseous now. March 10, 2008 Some depression and lack of motiovation. March 11, 2008 Feel ok. Not spectacular, but not bad. March 12, 2008 March 13, 2008 March 14, 2008 March 15, 2008 March 16, 2008 March 17, 2008 Started rough after a great Sunday, but fine now. March 18, 2008 March 19, 2008 Feel "normal"! March 20, 2008 March 21, 2008 Didn’t do 1.2 4 days on purpose. Lost track is all. March 22, 2008 March 23, 2008 March 24, 2008 March 25, 2008 Just feel unmotivated. March 26, 2008 March 27, 2008 March 28, 2008 March 29, 2008 March 30, 2008 Felt crap but because of a stupid stimulant Zosh gave me. March 31, 2008 April 1, 2008 April 2, 2008 April 3, 2008 April 4, 2008 Still getting severe benzo fatigue but nothing more. April 5, 2008 April 6, 2008 April 7, 2008 April 8, 2008 April 9, 2008 April 10, 2008 April 11, 2008 Tad depressed April 12, 2008 Ditto April 13, 2008 Anxious, tight chest, teeth hurting, tinnitus. April 14, 2008 April 15, 2008 No teeth pain, but depressed April 16, 2008 Depression eased off in PM April 17, 2008 Lonely and a tad depressed in AM. April 18, 2008 Just a little depression. Nothing dramatic. April 19, 2008 Exhausted all day is all April 20, 2008 Felt great when I got up. No depression. April 21, 2008 April 22, 2008 April 23, 2008 April 24, 2008 April 25, 2008 April 26, 2008 April 27, 2008 Freedom day! April 28, 2008 Still getting severe benzo fatigue but nothing more April 29, 2008 April 30, 2008 May 1, 2008 May 2, 2008